I AM

 

This is a great image I posted on facebook.  I thought it ironic since I had just listened to TWO talks on this the night before.  (Sometimes I think someone is trying to get a message to me.) ;o)  Let me share these talks and what I learned from this and how powerful the words are that you are saying.

First, Dallin H. Oaks was speaking on what it means as an Apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ to testify of His NAME.   He talked about Moses at the burning bush.  Moses asked the Lord, “who should I tell them sent me?”  A Jewish Rabbi gave Elder Oaks some insight into this particular scripture (the Name of Christ – I AM.)  He told Elder Oaks that anciently, the name  of a person was the essence or nature of a person, not the “label” like it is today.  Moses was saying, “what are you made up of?”  What is your nature?  It was simply “The nature of God” that he was trying to find out about.  The word essence comes from the French (or Greek ?)  derivative of “essen” which means essential.  The Lord answered him by saying, “I AM.”  This Rabbi explained that anciently when they changed their “essence,” they changed their name—Abram/Abraham, Sariah/Sarah, Jacob/Israel.  If you are a witness of the name of Christ, in that sense, you are a witness of the NATURE of Christ.  When you see me, you will know me because you will become like I am.  His atonement sets us toward Him and exaltation.

I thought this interesting because I always thought Moses was wondering if it really was the Lord, but with this definition, I learned that is was quite more than that.  I also learned that when one changes their nature or disposition (the essence of who they are), then their name was changed, too.  Had me thinking about new names for those whose lives become more pure and why they changed them.  Saul became Paul after a mighty change.  Is that so good things would be associated with his new name?  When a woman marries, she takes on her husband’s last name (at least in America) and that con-notates  a change.  Interesting to think about what you have done with your current name.

As I came home that night, my good husband said he had recorded a show on PBS for me.  (Video below)  It was Wayne Dyer.  And at some point in the show, he started talking about Moses being at the burning bush and asking the Lord, “who shall I say sent me?”  The Lord answered, “My name is I AM that I AM.”

“Now every single time that you use the words, ‘I AM,’ you are citing the name of God right from the holiest books.   And every time you say the words, ‘I am weak.  I am poor.  I am  unlucky.  I am unhappy.  I am sick.  I am unable to attract into my life what you want; you are desecrating the name of God.  God did not say, ‘I will be.  My name is ‘I hope things will work out well.’  My name is ‘maybe things will show up as I wanted, but possibly not. ‘  He said, ‘I AM that I AM.’  You must be conscious of how you use these words, ‘I am.’   I am strong.  I am well.   I am content.  Even if your senses tell you something different.  I AM……You’ll see that putting the words ‘I Am’ in front of something into your mind and imagination is a very powerful way to attract into your life recognizing your own divinity.   I am God  is not blaspheme.  It is your identity.”

This brought me to tears.  Here I had first heard an Apostle of the Lord testifying of the name of Jesus Christ– The Great I AM.  Then I heard this and understood for the first time, that my own thoughts and words of self-deprecation were not just tearing down me, but were tearing down My Lord, My Savior, My Brother that I love so dearly.  How could I have done this?  How could I continually tear myself down and Him, too?  I was heart broken.  I would not hurt My Lord, but I would hurt myself.  I had never made the connection that if I was hurt, He was, too.  I vowed to watch my thoughts and language from here on out.  I found some renewed hope.

And then a bright light came into my mind.  In my lifevision, I have a whole closing paragraph that is all “I am” statements.  I began to rejoice that I had spent that time to write my lifevision and try to think of all the things  I wanted to be or believed deep down that I was, by stating all kinds of “I am” phrases, such as:  I am kind.  I am tolerant.  I am Christlike.  I am a good mother. etc etc.

The next morning as I was running and listening to my lifevision, this particular paragraph (that I wrote as a closing) actually comes up as the first one I listen to.  I set it to Handel’s Hallelujah Chorus so it would be powerful.  I was nearly in tears as I ran realizing that I was not only trying to become what I had written, but that I was glorifying God.  I listened and ran with a renewed, light, uplifted heart.  It had a whole new meaning.

I hope that after reading this, you will also think and ponder about what you say and THINK about yourself.  What words do you hear in your head?  “I am fat.  I am ugly.  I am not good enough.”  Because you ARE and your are HIS, and He paid a dear dear price for you.

Here is the Wayne Dyer video in full.  It is long, but OH SO GOOD!!  Well worth the time!

Faith vs Knowledge

One day in church, a friend in the Bishopric was bearing his testimony.  He quoted this scripture:

Hebrews 11:1– Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

I remember something just jumping right out at me.  Substance of things hoped for and evidence of things not seen.  Those phrases seem like oxymorons.  If there is substance, then why hope?  If there is evidence, then how can it not be seen?  So I pondered …. If there is SUBSTANCE to something we are hoping for or EVIDENCE of things we are not seeing, then something already exists and it is up to us to focus or look for that substance or evidence.  If there is substance or evidence of that thing, then there is knowledge—not faith.  So if we understand faith in this concept, we can look around us for evidence or substance of what we are having faith in.  Then we will have knowledge.  I hope this is making sense.  Here’s an example.

I have a friend, Marnie, who lives in Georgia.  I’ve never been to Georgia.  So if I’ve never been and never seen it, how can I know that Georgia REALLY exists?  I can have faith and hope that it does.  But according to this verse, is there substance for my hope?  Is there evidence of what I am not seeing?  The answer is yes.  First, there is Marnie’s witness.  She’s been there.  She lives there.  I’ve seen pictures of Georgia.  I can read all about it.  So if I have substance and evidence, then I don’t have to have “faith” in it anymore, I can have KNOWLEDGE.  And even though I have not seen, nor been there, I can still have knowledge of it and testify to others that Georgia is real and exists.

The same scenerio can happen with Christ.  I have faith that Christ lives but I haven’t seen Him.  Using this verse, if I HOPE that He is there, then I can look for SUBSTANCE that supports this.  If I cannot see Him, I can look for EVIDENCE that tells me He is real and exists.  What substance and evidence do I have?   I have the scriptures. I also have those who have seen the Savior, including the prophet and apostles .  They have  written and testified of Him. I have the Holy Ghost who, as a WITNESS of Him (meaning He has seen Christ  and KNOWS Him), has testified to me that He is real.  If I were in the Holy Land, there would be tangible evidence of where He walked and lived.  I look around the world at the creations, at people, at the mountains, and a tree.  I have a witness every single day of a Creator. I can listen to music.  I can feel His spirit when I pray.  I can have tangible evidence and KNOW.

Now…if I can find this substance and this evidence, then is it not KNOWLEDGE that He exists?  And if I have knowledge, then it will become as sure and real and I will see Him, yet even if I don’t right now, I can still know.

Now, what if you have to have faith in something else—like, say, paying off your house.  That is also a test of faith.  It is something that we have to believe in and hope for.  I can take this same principle and look around me for tangible evidence that it is possible and I can find substance that will tell me that I can.

What if you are dealing with health issues like cancer?  Can you look around and find evidence and substance for healing?  I believe you can.

Powerful stuff.  I hope that made sense and you can feel what I am saying.  When this hit me, I thought that perhaps the Lord is telling us that the answers are right in front of us and are tangible.  I think it is all about focus again.  Time and time again, I am understanding how important it is to focus and set your sights on what is good and holy and right, then all other things will be opened unto you.  Then sure knowledge comes.  Past hope.  Past faith.  Pure knowledge.

That is what I seek.  For then who can dispute?

Facing the Giant: One Woman’s Courageous Fight with Cancer

This is my friend, Cheryl, and her two youngest kids.  We went to school together.  She is the single mother of 5 (youngest 3).   She is beautiful, smart, talented and funny.  She has been running aa day-care business in her home to generate income since her last divorce.  She has no insurance.  She was also recently diagnosed with Stage 4 Esophageal Cancer.  The Dr told her it wasn’t anything she consumed or did to cause it – it just is. “He didn’t give even a 1% chance just said uncurable- he is a good dr. and has to say what he has to say and is a positive person and does hope for me to beat this.”

So here she is with this young family, facing the end of her life.  Or is she?

This last week, Cheryl’s daughter (with the help of her brother and some other family) had a fundraiser dinner/auction called, “Help Save My Mom.”  I stopped by to give a donation.  I was hoping to see Cheryl.  You see, even though we went to school together, I have not seen her for a long while.  Facebook brought us together a while back, so I’ve been “in contact” with her that way.  (Makes me grateful for Facebook!)  So I wasn’t sure how she was feeling and if she’d be to the dinner or not.  She’s had surgery and last week was prepped for her Chemo treatments which started today.

Fortunately for me, I chatted with my cousin long enough that Cheryl came walking it.  Oh, how good it felt to hug her and tell her how much I loved her and admired her.  She looked beautiful.  Thin and perhaps a little weak, but amazing considering what her last 3 weeks have been like.

As we were chatting a lady came around the corner, saw her, and burst into tears.  I wasn’t sure how to react.  Should I have cried at seeing her?  Is it better to smile and try to be “normal?”  Gosh, I didn’t know what one was supposed to do and if my love for her seemed less because I wasn’t emotional.

But then an amazing thing happened.  Cheryl kept visiting with the few of us there.  She told us how she was trying to remain positive.  She told us about her visit to the radiologist last week (she posted a bit about this on facebook, so I understood somewhat.)  She said the radiologist was not nice and kept saying all kinds of stuff to her.  For the first time since the diagnosis, she broke down in tears and felt discouraged and lacking hope.  Then she said, “But THIS week when I went it for them to check lines and do their tests, I told the radiologist that I was trying to remain as positive as I possibly could and that I planned to beat this thing.  So if they had any information, they could just put it in my bag and I would read it later, but not to say anything to her that wasn’t positive.”

Then she added, “It’s really sad that it’s taken something like this to help me find my voice.”

WOW!  Amazing!  I have pondered and pondered that comment since I left her.  I have to agree with her.  Isn’t it sad that we wait  until we have to truly fight for our life that we  stand up to those who try and drag us down, shatter our dreams, and crush our hearts?  Why is it then, at that time when our life is in peril that we decide to fight back, stand up, and proclaim that we want light and truth in our life?

Why?  Because we are facing the giant!  We are looking him square in the eye and like the hero/heroine in any movie or story, we are determined to fight to the bitter end and we expect a victory!

Cheryl is my hero.  She knows and believes in miracles.  She truly knows that she CAN beat this.  She said, “This is what I know:  I know that my life is in the Lord’s hands now.  He has the power to heal me.  And if it is not for me to be healed now, I have peace knowing that He will take care of my family and all will be well with them.  You remember that several years ago my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer and given a 6% chance to live.  And look at him years later!” (He was actually in the  gym where the dinner was set up taking money for the auction items and was laughing and joking with everyone!)  This is why Cheryl believes.  She has seen miracles.  She has seen her own father beat the odds.  She knows the Lord’s power.

I found it ironic that one of the items up for auction was a board that read something like this (wish I had written it down exactly):

“Everyone saw Goliath as a giant that no man could beat.  David saw a bigger target that could be easily hit.”

Perspective makes all the difference in the world.  So does attitude.  I do know that as long as Cheryl listens to the “voice of truth,” she will slay every giant that she faces, and if not, she will have peace while in the battle.

I post one of my favorite songs in tribute to her.  She is my hero.  I love her.  I believe in her.  I believe in miracles!  I pray for her daily.  Ironically, we all thought we were going to the dinner to lift her spirits and support her, but in the end, it was she who lifted all of us with her smile and positive attitude.  There just aren’t many people like that!  I am privileged to know so many, especially to know Cheryl!

Always listen to the Voice of Truth!  David had faith and courage when he stood before Goliath.  My friend does, too!  Giants fall easily, Cheryl!  You just have to hit them right between the eyes! ;o)

Love you!

Denise

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Bucket Lists

View of Jerusalem

I have a couple of “groups” that I am a part of.  In one of the groups, the topic of “Bucket Lists” came up.  This comment came up from one lady and I was wondering how you would answer this.

I don’t [have a list]- I guess I just figure that we can’t afford to do what I would like to do, so no reason to really have a bucket list.

Here’s my response to that:

“As a lifecoach and teacher of Lifevision, it truly saddens me when people lose their dreams or goals because of money. I know. I’ve been there and done that. Now I know how much life can open up– in spite of all the turmoil going on around us. I guess that’s why I teach and coach now, because I know that whatever we truly set our minds to, we will accomplish. And if we don’t have the money, but we have a goal (written), then it can start moving towards us and the means and ways will come. I have many goals that don’t need money and many that do. I have found that sometimes we think we need money to accomplish them, when really, we only need resources. I have a friend who wins stuff all the time. She figures, “why buy it when I can win it?” And she does. What I love most is helping people tap into their own “resources.” It is amazing to watch the change and growth. Now I don’t have a “bucket list” or a “20 goal” list, but I do have a lifevision. A long term one and a short term one. Never give up hope, ladies. And NEVER EVER quit dreaming. Dreams are little puffs of faith and if we wipe them out, we are left with despair, depression and hopelessness.”

I often think about Lot’s wife.  She turned back, and when she turned back she lost her future.  It’s and interesting concept to think about.  We should always be looking forward.  Having hopes and dreams is what keeps us going.  When we lose those, we are left with hopelessness, despair, depression and drudgery.  Those are tools of Satan.  He is constantly trying to beat us down and make us feel like we aren’t worth it.  The Lord works just the opposite.  There is abundance out there.  There is enough for all.  He wants us to look forward, look up, and look to Him.  With Him ALL things are possible.

So keep dreaming!!

PS.  That picture of Jerusalem is one of my big dreams and goals– to take my whole family tovisit the Holy Land! =)

Eyes, Ears, Heart– What do these scriptures reference have to do with me?

I have spent the last year in a quest to document the Universal Laws and principles through scripture.  I have had some very enlightening moments, but none so great as this one. Continue reading Eyes, Ears, Heart– What do these scriptures reference have to do with me?

Solutions to Problems pt 2– Grad Night

This is my actual journal entry about Grad night:

I had such amazing things happen when working on Grad night.  As I implemented the “laws”, I could not believe all the good that came.

First of all, I was able to work with Nelson at Pillars Etc.  When I went in to have him look at some stuff I needed to get, I saw all these columns and pillars.  I said to him, “why don’t you just let me borrow these and bring them back?”  He said, “Why don’t you paint them and I’ll sell them on ebay.”  So we worked out a good deal.  I got to paint and use these thousands of dollars of columns free of charge and he got them painted and was able to sell them and get them out of his workspace.  It was just the beginning of great things. Continue reading Solutions to Problems pt 2– Grad Night

Solutions to your Problems

radio2Imagine yourself standing in a room with a radio.  Every kind of music surrounds you in the room, you simply have to turn the dial of your radio to find the station or type of music you are looking for.  They all exist in the room, but there is one in particular that you want at this time.  You tune in your dial until the station/music you are looking for comes in crystal clear. Continue reading Solutions to your Problems

Are you Hearing or Doing?

ist2_2821698-your-word-is-a-lampLast night I was working on my Personal Progress in Young Women.  I read this scripture in James 1:22-27 “But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves….”  I’ve heard this scripture over and over, but it finally resonated with me.  I have understood the teachings of the gospel and many of them are repeated over and over.  For example, I know that to keep my family safe and have the greatest chance of having my family stay on the right path and having them forever, I must do these 3 basics things:  Read scriptures daily, have family prayer daily, and have Family Home Evening once a week.  Simple, like looking at a staff, yet sometimes not easy to do.  Too much of life gets in the way. Continue reading Are you Hearing or Doing?

Creating a Good Marriage and Good Relationships

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There’s been a discussion on the Returned Missionary Moms list that I am on.  It was about marriage and how to improve a frustrating situation.  Here is the advice that I sent in.  One lady asked to share it, so I thought– “Hey, if  it’s good enough for her to share with her kids, maybe I should be sharing, too!”

A few years ago, I was cleaning my house and someone had left the TV on. I’m not sure what show was on, but I heard a lady complaining about her husband. I stopped to listen and heard her say something to the effect that she just wished her husband would come home and not go to the bar, that he would love her and her child and spend time with them. As she rattled off a few more simple things she wished for, I felt like I was hit with a ton of bricks. Continue reading Creating a Good Marriage and Good Relationships

Dictating the outcome of your life through journaling

ist2_5271763-old-book-and-penI have to admit that I get in great resistance to journaling.   I love having my thoughts saved, but dread taking the time to do it.   A few years ago, I started a “Webster Weekly” where I wrote down what was going on in the family.  I liked it.   I like it even more now when I go back and read all the funny things my kids did.   So I suppose that I am not in too much resistance to it, but really struggle to sit down and write.   Probably because I want to write a lot and don’t feel I have much time.

When blogs came out, it made it an easier transition for me to take my Webster Weekly to my blog AND I could add pictures.  Still I struggle/d with consistency. Continue reading Dictating the outcome of your life through journaling